So, one of the agents I got a card from is interested in sexy urban fantasy. I have an urban fantasy. At times, it can be decidedly sexy, but at the beginning, it’s kinda not. I thought I could make minor changes through the entire book to make the characters a little sexier, but I’m finding that story-wide changes would mess with the tone of my story.
My mc is in a place she doesn’t want to be. She’s hiding from the cops. She’s dealing with a crime she’s committed. She’s not looking for sex or love or relationships. To sex her up would be to change her dramatically. It’s funny to think that one little change affects the character as a whole, but isn’t that true about real people as well?
I was stressing about this last night. If Agent X really wants a sexy book, she’s going to keep looking for one. She’s not going to rep one and then rewrite it to resemble something else. If she likes this, she’ll rep it. My putting a gloss on it isn’t going to fool her. I texted my friend Kena with my worries, and she said, “Write what you feel.” Four little words that gave me permission to do what I wanted to do in the first place. ^_^
Those words let me get over the fact that I might be screwing my chance to get published. I always said I’d make agent revisions because they know the market better than me, but this agent hasn’t even seen my pages yet. I can’t write based on what I THINK she might like. I think that would be the quickest way to write a story that sounds completely fake.
So, I’ll go with what I have, making small changes I’ve wanted to make anyway, making sure there are no typos and that the plot and flow is tight. I hope Agent X loves it. I would love for her to love it. ^_^ And if she does want to rep it and thinks it needs to be sexier, I think she’ll have ideas that don’t change the tone or characters as a whole. Because if she didn’t already like them, why would she say yes?
Do you ever think this hard about possible revisions? Ever stress about maybes like this? Problems after representation seem like they’d be wonderful problems to have until I think really hard about them. Ah well, I’m not going to stress anymore, and neither should you. Listen to Kena, and write what you feel.